The Main Purpose of this Blog...

Hello, everyone! I'm Casey Bolls, the founder of Bolls Productions! My tagline for this site is "Word Media for Everyone" because I am hoping to get back into writing and share it with the public. I call everything I post on this site "word media" because I will be writing and posting a variety of different things: short fiction, long fiction, poetry, blog posts, past writing, present writing, research papers, blog posts, etc. Only problem is, I haven't officially written any very long stories in over a decade due to the crazy schedule of my past college life, and because some experiences I had over the past few years have scared me from writing any future material. I can definitely say that I haven't really written anything in the past five to ten years--almost nothing! I had lost so much confidence in myself and in my writing, and now I'm trying to get that back. Honestly, I still enjoy writing stories and I'm hoping to be able to get something officially published someday. For now, I need to improve on my writing skills and get my imagination back on track first, and this website will allow me to do this.

I will also be writing blog posts on this site to share my life, my hobbies, my travels, and some of my personal struggles and endeavors. I really need to get out there and stop hiding myself from everyone out of fear of not being liked, and this website will allow me to do that. Hopefully I won't humiliate myself like I did while sharing my writing in college (or by simply interacting with people in person!).

Here is something that I hardly ever talk to anyone about: I am on the spectrum (autistic), and I am also a socially anxious person. I am constantly worried about what everyone thinks about me and how I act sometimes, so a lot of the time I just don't say much to anyone. When I don't talk much with people, or if I glance at people and quickly look away, it doesn't mean I don't like them. It just means I don't want to bother them or embarrass myself in some way. Hopefully that will all change thanks to this website I have just created. I feel like I write much better than I talk sometimes.

I have attended college and currently have a BA in English, because I have been hoping to land myself a library job. This has not worked out well for me, however. I haven't found any good library positions in my area, and I've had a difficult time getting accepted into the library jobs I have applied for. So for now, I work at Tesla as a Material Handler. I drive forklifts for a living, and I have been doing this since September 2021. I love my job and appreciate everything that my supervisors, leads, and co-workers have done for me over the years. There was even a time when I used to work two jobs for seven months. I had my full-time 12-hour, 3-4 day a week job at Tesla, and a part-time job at Livermore Public Library, where I would work for 4-8 hours a day during my days off at Tesla (2 days a week). However, it was impossible for me to move up from my minimum-wage library job due to lack of open positions, and after Tesla gave many of their employees a massive raise, I saw no reason to continue to work two jobs (especially since I wasn't getting anywhere trying to move up in my library career). I was burning myself out working so much and I didn't have much of a life outside of work at that time, so I made the difficult decision to resign from my library job and continue working for Tesla. Don't worry, though, I feel extremely lucky that I have a job right now. Maybe someday I will be able to find something at Tesla that will allow me to utilize my other talents and skills besides being a Material Handler, but so far I haven't found any Tesla jobs that are related to my BA in English, or to writing.

As of now, I have given up on my dreams to work in a library. In the meantime, since I get 3-4 day weekends from my current job, I will be using that time to develop and improve on my writing skills so that I eventually can get something officially published. So far, I have not published anything yet and I don't make money off my writing (yet). I have been writing stories at home for fun since I was a kid. It slowed down once I hit my teens, and by the time I started college, I never finished anything aside from my assignments at school. I tried writing an anime-style novel almost ten years ago and spent many years re-working it over and over again before I decided to cancel the project. I then tried writing a remake to True Friends (2011), a story of a fictional rock band who happen to be huge Rush fans, but I had a very difficult time coming up with jokes, different scenes, dialogue, and scenarios. I've always wondered if my imagination was dying. I don't believe that is the case now, because now I am committed to writing ARK (2027), a mature-rated reboot of a children's book I made at home for fun when I was fourteen years old...way back in the summer of 2009! So far, this project has been much easier for me to work on because it doesn't require a very complex plot or setting, I don't have to be too serious with it all the time, and I don't have to follow all of the traditional rules when it comes to writing a novel. I mean, this story is centered around talking animals flying around in space, so I definitely don't need to take this too seriously (even though there will definitely be some serious, unsettling moments in there). This will be great for me, too, because I have been so literal over everything lately. I need to get my old, fun imaginative self back and stop being so serious and dull all the time!

I am sorry if I went on a tangent while writing all of this, and I'm sorry this was all over the place. I wanted to get all this out before the next week started because my goal is to write a new blog post every week, in order to keep this website alive and relevant. I am so happy I made this website so that I can get out there, open up some more about myself, and hopefully stop being so quiet and shy all the time (especially at work!). It is part of my New Year's Resolution for 2026, which started after I had a particularly rough end to the year 2025. I still remember what one of my co-workers said to me once, when I went to work on New Years Eve 2025:

"Casey, go home and get some rest and feel better soon. Don't worry about anyone's opinions."

That's what started this whole ball rolling!

That's exactly what I need to do!

No more hiding!

No more keeping my ideas, thoughts, and quirks locked away!

No more worrying about what people are going to think about me when I share something in person or post something over the Internet!

Okay, I better stop for now and go to bed. I have work tomorrow...

...at 6 AM!